Ever the Romantic

I do no believe in love at first sight.  Oh sure, I'm a sucker for a good Romantic Comedy and I read at least one Jane Austen book a year, but really, who actually believes that you can tell just by looking at someone that he will be your happily ever after?

I do not believe in true love's first kiss.  I believe that kissing is amazing and I wouldn't mind finding someone to experiment this with a little more in depth, but I don't believe in the healing powers of a kiss- or the importance of a first kiss, although I did read an interesting article in college concerning allergies being alleviated by extensive osculation.  I may never forgive my roommate for introducing me to that one... particularly when it comes time for Cedar Season in Texas.

I do not believe that there is only one opportunity for love in this life.  I could cite my grandparents as proof.  Both were happily and devotedly married in their twenties when tragedy struck and they were both widowed with four small children.  Then they met, were married, and had two more little blessings, bringing the headcount to twelve in their household.  Moreover, I believe there to be a great many kinds of love.

I believe that I am loved.  I believe that driving someone crazy is a surefire sign of affection.  I believe giving someone unsolicited advice is also a sign of endearment.  Requiring someone's opinion to make a decision would also follow this logic.

I believe that I love.  I would walk through a rain of fire, shrapnel, and bullets for the people that I love.  I would also walk through a similar sort of hell fire to get away from some of the people I love.  If you question either statement join me at one of my family reunions.

I believe that someday I might understand love.  I know that I do not yet.  I believe that it is love that makes my family and some of my friends worry for my happiness.  I admit that this is occasionally a concern of mine as well, but I do not believe that anyone should lose sleep over it.  I know that love exist.  I know that I am currently loved.  I know that I will continue to live and love as God sees fit.  Some days I wonder if I will always be single- and if I will turn out like the dear old maids from Arsenic and Old Lace.  I hope that someday I will find a man who can love me for everything that I am not, but I would rather die alone than settle for anything less than the love I already feel.

I believe that God loves me for who I am.  I believe that God wants me to be happy.  I believe that if God wants me to fall in love then I will and if He does not wish it that I will get a dog.  I believe that God has a plan and that incessant worry will not hurry any grandchildren for my Mother to spoil.  I do not believe that pacing by the phone will hasten my Prince Charming's arrival.  I do believe that if he shows up in white armor on a white steed that I might don my army fatigues and supply the children with paintball guns and orders to fire at will.  I believe in lots of things

And if all else fails, there's gotta be someone for me out there because even JB got a girl to marry him.